you have no idea how much this pissed me off as a kid
what do you want!!!!!!!!
Let this kiss be a prayer to the innocence we stole from you
gotta repost all the art wrongfully banished to the shadow realm
gotta repost all
the art wrongfully banished
to the shadow realm
Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.
Anonymous asked:
Fanwork creators self rec! When you get this, reply with your five favorite fics/art/podfics/etc. that you've made, then pass on to others. Let’s spread the self-love 🌼
(No pressure if you don't want to though!)
Hope you have a good day! ✨
dp-marvel94 answered:
This is too sweet! 🥺🥰🤗
In no particular order:
Face to Face should be a surprise to no one. I’ve been writing it for three and a half years. It’s almost 280K long. I’m so proud of myself for sticking with it this long. A lot has changed in my life since I started this. Writing the story actually was very important to understanding and accepting myself as an autistic person. I’m in a much better place emotionally now. And I literally just have the epilogue left to write. 😭 I’m going to finish it after Invisobang, I swear!
Speaking of Invisobang!
This is the 76K monstrosity I wrote in three months for the first Invisobang. There was a lot of tears in writing it. I’m pretty sure I gave myself headaches just about every day with the stress I was putting myself under. Honestly, I never want to do that again. 😅😓💀 But there were a lot of emotions in there I think I needed to get out of me. It helped me deal with some things; there were a lot of emotions I needed to get out of me so I’m happy I wrote in, even if it hurt.
So apparently, I’m going to be a debby-downer for all these. :( This was the first multi-chapter fic I ever wrote, my first real dip into writing fanfiction (after a one shot I wrote near by birthday in 2018 to cheer myself up). I wrote it in the month or so after graduating from graduate school. I wrote with a fever and excitement I hadn’t felt in a long time and my sister beta-read it with me, just as excited as I was.
*Religious discussion to follow*
Honestly this story saved my life. For the past year or so, especially the last semester of grad school, I was in the deepest depression and anxiety I’ve ever experienced. I kept running into road blocks in my research. Nothing was going the way I wanted. I never got to see my family; with my sister being my best friend (and still is) that was a big deal. I did many things I am deeply ashamed of and I felt so alone. And I was so angry at God for letting me get that deep. I felt like he’d abandoned me. I was convinced if He didn’t even care about me at all. Which was absolutly earth-shattering for me; I’d never had my faith shaken like that. In all honestly, I came really close to leaving the church. I’d already checked out mentally. I stopped listening to Christian Music (yes even Disciple) because I couldn’t enjoy it anymore; all those promises in the songs felt like getting stabbed when I knew that God had forgot about me.
The point, the depression and guilt and running from God (because I was running from Him; He never abandoned me) turned into a vicious cycle, driving my deeper and deeper, farther and farther away. Things only started getting better once I graduated. And something finally pushed me to start writing. And writing Double Discovery was the first step in climbing out of that depression and coming back to church. Or rather…. it was what Jesus used, completely oblivious to me, to start to pull me out of the pit and bring me back to Him. Looking back now, I have no doubt. God lead me to the DP community. He gave me the special interest I have, the passion, my talent for writing, the ideas. I remember praying (ie begging), before things got really bad and I can’t even stomach the thought of talking to God, for Him to help me. It didn’t come when I want it to or how I would have imagined or even wanted. But He did help me. He never abandoned me.
*End Religious Discussion*
Okay, these last two will just be fun, I swear!
I wrote this for my first Phic Phight. It’s the first story of mine someone made fanart for. Check out this piece by @paenling
Another Phic Phight offering, this one from 2021. I had to include one of my numerous clone sibling stories. XD